Forgotten Treasure

In preparation for our move to the UK, I've started going through things in the basement and papers I could only partially sort when I left the house where I'd lived with P. In a drawer titled "To Save" I found this poem I wrote to God in Autumn 2001:


You have drawn me
out of myself
into your arms
never taking "no" for an answer
knowing precisely why my heart could not believe
all the awesome plans you have
for me

Wooing, never pushing
drawing me in with a smile
never asking me to go
where you had not gone before
never asking me to go
alone

I found it hard to trust
and you proved yourself to me
though I hardly dared to ask it
though you didn't owe it to me

Sheer gift
sheer grace
has brought me to this place of knowing you
a little more
loving you a little deeper
letting go of the shore
wading in a little deeper
trusting you a little more

I'm learning to float
on your mercy
finally knowing:
you will not let me sink